|From May 2011|
My life is full of sweet baby giggles, warm sunshine *finally* and kidlets, always kidlets.
So much of motherhood is tedious, difficult, and messy. But oh my, there are moments when I think, "Why did I sign up for this?" Like today when my five-year-old threw a tantrum like a two-year-old...
But then they kiss my and "lub" me and tell me they "thanks" for dinner, and help me with the laundry and well, I'm back again.
Back in the moment.
Back to absorbing the moments because dang it all they keep growing.
Back to answering unanswerable questions, back to kissing their faces until they laugh, back to teaching them what they want to learn.
Back to being their mother, voluntarily, whole-heartedly. Blessedly.
I chose this. This life, this place, this moment.
But, do you think, maybe, back, once upon a time, before we can remember, maybe, just maybe, we chose each other? Back then?
I think we did. And it takes my breath away.