Thursday, February 4, 2010

What I want.

This is post is vague, and has no specifics. Just be aware, life is fluid, things are changing, and Derek and I are trying to make wise choices because of it. 

Choices, regardless of the why or the reason, are painful. I have heard people say, "Oh but be grateful you have the choices to make!!!" Okay, fine. I'm glad and all.

Except when I don't really like any of my choices. I feel a bit like my children, when I offer "Peanut butter and Jelly" or "Turkey sandwich" and Henry replies, "McDonalds". Sorry Dude, that is NOT an option.

So I'm all jumping around, begging for what I want. PLEASE, Heavenly Father, let us go to (proverbial) MikeyDees! PLEASE!

And He, in His ever kind, gentle, and all-knowing ways tells me, so nicely, "No sweet child. That is NOT an option. You can have peanut butter and jelly or turkey. Now choose." (He tends to leave off the "or I'll choose for you", that I am ever so famous for uttering.)

And I must think that our Father, who created me, and loves me more than I can fathom (even as a parent myself) must be far more patient than I, because when I stomp my foot, and complain and whine and say, "But I'm tired, but I don't want to, why can't you do it for me?" He doesn't even sigh, or get snippy. He just ever-so-kindly waits for me to get my act together and quit acting like a baby.

And isn't it lovely? To know that all the while, among all my complaining and begging for divine help, He's happy to provide it. We've just got to ask.

So, I'm asking. And asking. And complaining. And wishing. And asking.

And He's there. Always there.


Alisa and Jared said...

Love the post. And love the "applicable" ad that came up for your post this time: "Christian Prayer Center: Submit Your Prayer--Thousands will Pray for You"

And hey--we'll do it for you, for free! ;)

Yasmine said...

I hope these choices don't include leaving Vegas because I'm going to come visit you! (After I visit you can leave.) I'll email you more details. !!!!! =)

Morgan -Ing said...

You're coming to visit??? Oh I'm so excited! Hurry up and email the details woman!

BloggingBills said...

I hear ya babe. I tend to make choices for people, IE my students and then they get annoyed and act badly. I've been trying to say, 'You may choose to do it now, or you may choose to do it during...recess, lunch, (whatever) but you must finish it. DOesn't bother me if they take all day and miss the science fun activity because they are still writing spelling words. Okay, it does bother me, but I'm not willing to threaten or fight anymore.

Brian and Kelsey said...

I HATE DESCISIONS! I have never been good at them and currently they are making me grumpy. Just thought I would share!

Morgan -Ing said...

Kels- I believe you.

Anonymous said...

Sometimes I just want to throttle people when they give me advice. (Is that too rude to admit? Oh well.) Saying that "Hey at least you have a choice!" Is like telling a mom who just lost her child "Hey, at least you have 2 others!" Does that make you or the mother feel any better? NO!!

I think that you took the words that are in my head and wrote them better than I presently could.


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