Tuesday, February 18, 2014

Not Much To Say...

I've clicked over to blogger several times over the last days, but realized I have NOTHING to say, click away after staring at the blank page for a while.

It's snowing. It's always snowing.

We have no running water, our well is broken apparently?

The kids are a bit stir-crazy. We are all a bit stir-crazy.

So much of the time, I have to fight the urge to run away. But then again, it's snowing, and I can't get out of my driveway even if I wanted to.

Warm, sunshine, green grass... would that be too much to ask?

We rehomed the goats last week. I couldn't take the stress of their constant escape attempts. They destroyed the chicken run, and as a result left many sharp loose wires sticking everywhere. This did not stop them climbing on it, and were going to hurt themselves. Additionally, with no forage available, they would escape and then CHEW ON MY HOUSE. Add to that my serious physical limitations right now, as in, I can barely lift Ezra, 50 bs of food was just NOT possible. Derek isn't home enough to care for them, and it's not fair to ask my kids to do it all.

So, the goats got a new home. I LOVED my goats, but honestly, I am relieved. They went to a lovely little farm, and I know they'll be safe and happy. Maybe in a few years when we're more able to build a safe, electrocuted (seriously) goat run, we'll try again. The benefits were wonderful, but not outweighing the cost at this point.

We learn everyday I suppose.

I'm trying to be positive, to look to my blessings, to be thankful, to more fully rely on God. Some moments are easier than others. I'm in a holding pattern most days. I just try to survive.


{B} said...

You don't know me, I found your blog randomly, but I have really enjoyed your honesty through your journey of being a mother. :) I can't even begin to imagine what you're going through right now. I hope you can find some peace through your faith and the strength of your family. And i'll pray for some sun and green grass for you! :) Just know that you have people sending good vibes from all around, even from strangers like me. :) -Brie

Morgan Hagey said...

Hey Brie- Thank you. You have no idea how much it helps to know people are pulling for me. And no need to be strangers. ;) Stick around.

Jenelle said...

Hi Morgan,

I guess this post calls out to strangers. You don’t know me either, but I’ve been reading your blog for 3 years. I found it randomly as I was riding the bus home from work one night and I was hooked. When I first started reading, I was a single 23 year old working full time at a clothing shop in San Francisco. Even though we had little in common, I found myself checking your blog often to laugh or ponder about life with kids. I was struck by your patience, honesty, and humor. Fast forward to now. Last night I came back to your blog after a couple of months. I read about the birth of your son, and I sat there crying my eyes out as I nursed my own son to sleep. I’m so, so sorry that you are going through this. I just wanted to tell you that I admire you, that your stories had such a strong influence on me. They made me look forward to being a mama.

Much love,


Gamble Gang said...

Morgan - just read some of your blog and I just have to say . . you are amazing . . . I would say hang in there but I know you already are and doing more! You are a great example to all of us of what a great mother is. Keep it up!

Morgan Hagey said...

Jenelle, oh my goodness. Thank you so so much for your comment. You are too sweet, and congratulations on being a momma. That's the best.

Morgan Hagey said...

Hey Jill, thanks friend. I miss you and your cute family. :)


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